At the start of the month I was in Puerto Rico with family, and once my family left I got back to work. It was nice, but there was a looming threat I hoped wouldn’t be too bad. But then Covid 19 shut down Philly and most businesses in the USA, which put me out of work. So suddenly I had to figure out what to do, and how to feel about it.
Since this Covid 19 put me and most other people out of work, and now also stuck at home, I continue to work through my thoughts and feelings about that too. People are upset, angry, and not to hopeful. Outside of hopelessness, I’m seeing some who choose to remain faithful. People (many of faith in God, spite the various beliefs of God,) are trusting that things will work out either day by day or overall. Instead of panicking and buying all the supplies possible, trusting that all will be well sounds like it offers more room for hope. Some are taking that trust positively, others not so much! Some are living their lives normally and getting sick, some feel that if they die, then they’ll die. I would like to take the best from those different ideas, but I tend to keep going through it.
I have moments of fear where I think of the people I can loose, or the lives that were already lost, and knowing there’s not much I can do makes me feel hopeless and helpless. That feeling makes my apartment feel a lot more like a cage (the negative thoughts can be a lot less kind though, and it gets worse the more I do it.) So I do what I can and pray about the rest. I can do things for myself like practice cooking, and working on personal projects. Then to react to this situation I can try and help whomever I can and offer encouragement. Which I’m doing by sharing cards with encouraging messages. Which I hope makes someone feel less lonely even for a moment, in a unique artistic way. Which is most of what I can do for today. Perhaps thats the best I can do, since the future is uncertain.
Love from Juliana 